October 22nd, Thursday, Cloudy & Rainy
It was another new learning day yesterday! I saw a Chinese docotor yesterday morning, took the herbal medicine after lunch and dinner, I felt better physically and mentally. I went to bed at 10:50, had a dream, slept lightly, woke up at 4:30, stayed in bed, slept slightly and lightly. I didn’t take Xanax, got up at 7:15, read the line messages, answered Rai’s request by sending her Nancy’s “Grace” chapter 3-7 via email.
I participated in the Japanese study group from 8 till 9 o’clock, the reading was fun, the dialogue was a noise and a little boring. As it was an on-line class, I took time to get prepared for the morning exercise routine. I left home as soon as the class was over, got on Bus 642, as the sole passenger, arrived at the fitness center before 9:30, did stretching for 15 minutes and running for 15 minutes. It felt good to sweat after running on the treadmill, yet I still felt stressful just thinking of my poor sleep at night.
After lunch, I tried to take a nap, but couldn’t fall asleep, maybe I did, for just a couple of seconds, I dreamt of something, I forgot what it was. From 1:30 to 3:30 I led the senior citizens sing and dance, I noticed the deterioration of cognitive ability among seniors. I felt contented working out with the seniors.
I took bus to the library to return 3 DVDs and one book. While in the library, I read the books on Insomnia I borrowed the other day, didn’t return them, and brought them back. I got home after 5 o’clock, turned on the computer, played the soft music to calm myself down. It was the first time I tried to ease my excited nerves by listening to the soft music.
I watched a 2022 American film “Don't Worry Darling” for less than ten minutes, changed to a 2025 Korean film “A Long Visit”. At 6:45, I threw away two bags of paper garbage when the garbage truck arrived.
I prepared fried rice for dinner and turned on TV to watch the recent news. It has been more than a week since I last watched news during dinner. I didn’t want my husband to worry about my panic problem, didn’t tell him about my diarrhea and palpitation. I took the herbal medicine after dinner and watched the second half of “A Long Visit” till the end. It was good for me to clear my head for a while.
After finishing the sad Korean film at 9:15, I started reading “The Insomnia Answer” by Paul Glovinsky, Arthur Spielman for a while. Then I watched a few sleep expert Dr. Michael Breus podcasts. Podcasts are more up-to-date than books.
October 21st, Wednesday, Sunny & Rainy
I took a doze of Jiawei Siaoyao San Concentrated Preparation yesterday evening, I felt a little better at night physically and psychologically. I still had light sleep, took Xanax 0.25mg⑦on the bedside table at 3 o’clock. As I only drank a little water with the medicine, I found xanax taste bitter, got up to have more water without turning on the light. I woke up at 6:20, stayed in bed till 7:20.
Before I walked in the fitness center, I used the ladies’ room. A housekeeping lady complimented my figure, and suggested I increase 3 kgs by eating two boiled eggs every morning. After the morning exercize routine, I rode an orange YouBike to a Chinese Medical Clinic near XinDian Senior High School. I met two Mormon missionaries, and chatted with them for a while about religions and life in general.
I walked into the clinic at around 11:00, saw the doctor for 20 minutes, I was the only patient, he took my pulse, and prescribed herbal medicine for one week. I felt relaxed after seeing the doctor. Hopefully I could had a little bit better sleep. During lunch, I told the story at the clinic to my husband, he was happy for me!
After lunch, I studied Korean for a while. After my husband left home to ride his bicycle, I took a light nap for maybe less than 20 minutes, then I took Bus 849 to Wulai. As soon as I got off the bus, it started raining, I saw people enjoy soaking the feet in the free hotsping in front of the tourist center, I joined them and chatted with a few tourists for 15 minutes, walked to the end of the old street, bought a boar sausage for NT$45 dollars.
In the evening, I watched a film "Whiplash" about a drummer at the musical school in New York. Life was competitive and challenging.
I enjoyed the long lunch hour with 3 of my college classmates, Julia, Cindy, and Sakura, we chatted for more than four hours at the 2nd Floor on RenAi Road yesterday afternoon.
In the evening, I went to bed at 10:50, didn’t know how long it took me to fall asleep, woke up at 12:30, took Xanax 0.25mg⑥at one o’clock, woke up at around 5:20, stayed in bed till 7:50. My husband seemed to have disturbed sleep, too, he got up late at 7:40.
I left home with a bag of used clothes, threw them away in a used clothes collection station. I carried a bottle of hot soybean milk, a quarter of a small avocado, a piece of dorayaki, ate them all on my way to XinDian Sports Center. I walked in the fitness center before 9 o’clock. I was happy to know that I gained weight back to 51.5 Kgs.
I started stretching for 30 minutes, weight training for 15 minutes, and running for 15 minutes. After sending a few line messages at the Family Mart, I rode an orange YouBike home, on my way, I bought 2 sweet melons for NT$20 dollars at the street fruit and vegatable vendor near home.
I watched one Korean podcast before lunch, made fried dumpling for lunch. During lunch, I mentioned what I plan to move to the penthouse, my husband wanted to keep some items he would need when old, when he couldn’t ride a bicycle along the river anymore.
I arrived at the JingXin Library before 1:30, borrowed 3 books on Insomnia. The Korean pronunciation class started from 2 till 4, with 5 participants, including Linda who proposed to have a class. The volunteer at the WenShan Center was not as friendly as those on Wednesday mornings. We decided to meet next Wednesday from 1:30 till 3:30 to finish the basic forty vowels and consonants.
On my way home on Bus 650, I realized that I must learn to accept the imperfect self, a person who sleeps light at night! In fact, I also realized it was not a good habit to sleep long in the late afternoon, in order to be wide awake in the evening. Eventually I ended up with a bad sleeping pattern. A streeful situation in Busan triggered my insomia.
After dinner, I watched a few DVDs. I couldn’t concentrate and enjoy, as I still felt anxious about my insomnia. I felt nervous I used the toilette at least four times today. At 9 o’clock, I took Jiawei Siaoyao San Concentrated Preparation. I watched “Sleep Well Tonight - Dr. Chris Carruthers on YouTube at from 9:15, I learned some useful tips to keep the dark environment, and three steps to keep the mind calm.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdgfX7OWJLU
Medline Plus sleep disorders, https://medlineplus.gov/sleepdisorders.html
National Institutes of Health
Books: Dr. Seuss Sleep Book
I tried to keep myself awake by all means yesterday, felt less stressful living with my insomnia. After taking a shower at 10:40, (my husband asked me if I would need another shower, as I already had one at the sports center, I said yes, it would be easier for me to fall asleep). I went to bed at 10:50, woke up before 12 midnight, fell asleep again, woke up again before 2, took Xanax 0.25mg⑤, woke up at 5:30, couldn’t fall asleep, got up at 7:10 this morning. I know I need to get used to my new biological clock, acknowledge my insomnia!
I watched a simple sentence drilling Korean podcast, I could practice during my morning exercise routine. At a quarter to 9, I walked into the fitness center, I weighed 51 Kilograms. I need to increase my body weight. At 10 o’clock, I left the fitness center, rode an orange YouBike home, bought one pound of dumpling skins, put on make-up, took Bus 642 to Restaurant 2nd Floor on Ren-Ai Road before 11:30, left the restaurant at 4:30, it was a very soothing and pleasant chitchat. I took Bus 642, and Bus 644 back to XinDian with Sakura.
In the evening, I joined an English book reading circle from 9:00 till 10:15.


