October 17th, Saturday, Sunny
I went to bed before 11 o’clock, fell asleep soon, woke up at 1:45, took Xanax 0.25mg, woke up again at 3:40, fell asleep, got up at 7:30 this morning.
I arrived at XinDian Sports Center before 8:30, left the fitness center at 9:20, arrived at JingXin Library at 9:40, borrowed 4 books and 3 DVDs. The Korean class started from 10:00, ended at 11:50. I rode a yellow YouBike to Brother Jimmy’s place for lunch.
In the afternoon, I went to DaAn Sports Center, to run for 25 minutes and weight training for 25 minutes. I took Bus 906 back to XinDian, rode an orange YouBike to Brother Jimmy’s place to collect the garbage. At 6:55, the garbage truck took away Brother Jimmy’s trash in front of my apartment. It was the first time I waited for the truck before its arrival.
In the evening, I took it easy watching a couple of Japanese podcast, recorded the shadowing of Sejong II lesson 5 and uploaded on Line.
At 10, I turned off the desktop, read a book, “Good Vibes, Good Life: How Self-Love Is the Key to Unlocking Your Greatness” by Vex King at the dining room till the shower time.
October 16th, Friday, Sunny
After I took a shower at 10:40 last night, I fell asleep soon. I woke up at 3:55. I hesitated a while, got up, took another half of Xanax 0.5mg, woke up at 8:30 this morning.
I did facial and body massage, bed stretching, got up, had a cup of hot water, took a multi vitamine, a cup of soybean milk, ate half of a dragon fruit. My husband already left home to help me with the ceiling and floor work of the penthouse.
I went to the dental clinic, had another four sets of invisalign 8/22~11/22, set another appointment on November 26th, Thursday morning, at 10:15. While waiting for my turn, I stroke a conversation with a patient sitting next to me. He told me he started the teeth alignment three months ago, had his wisdom teeth removed to give space for lower teeth alignment. He asked me why I decided to have teeth alignment at my age.
I rode my bicyble to the pork shop on JianGuo Road to buy a pound of ground pork, but I couldn’t find my zipper money bag. My apartment front door key was in my zipper money bag, I pressed the 2nd floor bell, to get in my house. I had been absent minded lately. Reading the book “Une Mort Tres Douce” by Simone de Beauvoir about her mother old days at age 78 gave me some comfort facing the aging anxiety, but I didn’t finish reading it.
At 12 noon, I received a line message from Brother Jimmy’s friend. I called Jimmy, and he was on his way home, so I went to Brother Jimmy’s place to cheer him up till 1:40, Brother Jimmy had trouble with his coming surgery in November. I had lunch at a newly opened Taiwanese shop even though I was not hungry. I knew that I needed to eat to stay strong. I ordered a bowl of Braised Pork Rice for NT$40 dollars and a plate of boiled pork belly for NT$60 dollars.
I got home just in time to throw some garbage away. I carried Edith’s Yoga Mattress to the penthouse in the afternoon, went to DaAn Sports Center to exercise for one hour, took Bus 909 home before 6:30.
I bought some noodles on my way home, and knew from the noodles shop owner that his younger sister found a job in Australia. I felt happy for her. We had DaLu noodles for dinner. My husband told me that I slept too long this morning during dinner hour. Then I watched a few Korean podcasts and short reels on facebook to keep me awake. I hope I can have a sound sleep tonight.
I googled the indications of Xanax, it is off label treatment for isomnia. I decided not to take it anymore to avoid dependency and rebound effect. It is important I change my life style. I should give myself a break not to study Korean too much.
After I took a shower at 10:30 last night, I fell asleep as soon as I hit the sack. I woke up at 2:55. Without hesitation, I took half of Xanax 0.5mg, and woke up at 7:30.
I felt reborn, did facial and body massage, bed stretching, got up, had a cup of hot water, took Alinamin WX, a cup of soybean milk, carried an entire dragon fruit in a lunch box, and left home for morning exercise routine.
I left the fitness center before 10, answered a few line messages at the Family Mart, left XinDian Sports Center before 10:30, got on Free New Taipei City Shuttle Bus to GuiShan, got off at Life House, walked to the Vietnamese Restaurant, enjoyed a pleasant set lunch of pork feet in the mountain breeze for NT$100 dollars. After having the dragon Fruit, brushed my teeth, I took a riverside route to the bus stop. I missed Bus 849, walked all the way to QuCi to get on the next Bus 849.
I arrived at Wheat Land Center for seniors before 1:30. For the first 30 minutes, I shared what happened with me in the past week, and how pissed off I felt about the news media reporting the city mayor election. During the intermission, the seniors sang happy birthday song to me, and many complimented my newly permed hair on my birthday.
I took a risk to take a nap for 15 minutes, from 4:45 till 5:00. I watched 2018 French film, Une Intime Conviction, based on a real event of the disappearance of Suzanne Viguier and the trial of her husband.
At 7 o'clock, while having dinner, my husband told me that he noticed that I had a habit of rubbing my hands above the dishes. Is it a subconscious body movemnt due to the anxiety? I continued watching the movie after dinner. I recommended it to my husband. He is not interested. Then I watched a couple of Korean podcasts and took a shower at 10:30.
October 14th, Wednesday, Sunny
It was a hard long night, I wonder if I fell asleep at all? I watched the clock several times, wide awake, feeling excited the whole night. Even I didn’t take any nap yesterday afternoon, I didn’t feel sleepy in the evening. I did fall asleep right after I hit the sack, but not for long. I also fell asleep the early morning, but not for long, either. It reminded me of the hard insomnia first semester of my graduate study at LSU Medical Center in New Orleans.
I got up at a quarter to 8, started my morning exercise routine just as usual, took Bus 918 to the sports center. At a quarter to 9, I walked into the fitness center, at 9:59, I left the center. While working out, my brain took a break, thinking of nothing. Exercise is as healing as a sound sleep!
After lunch, I saw a family doctor at TzuChi Hospital at 2:30 to request for some sleeping pills, Alprazolam (Xanax), 0.5mg/tab, manufactured by Taiwan Biotech Co. Ltd. I think it is practical to keep sleeping pills as household medicine, just in case.
I managed to stay awake, keep a distance between me and the bed. While watching DVDs, I felt absent minded, it was like watching films on a long distant flight. At 5 o’clock, I took a walk at DaFeng Elementary school, and watched people play pickleball for a while. After dinner, I stayed awake till 10:30 by watching the reels on facebook.
October 13th, Tuesday, Sunny
I woke up a few times last night, had a couple of dreams right before I got up this morning. While packing for morning exercise routine, I put an unfinished notebook in the backpack, I wanted to finish using up all half used notebooks, and throw them away! It is my mission to dispose as much of my belongings as possible.
While waiting at the traffic light, I saw Bus Green 13 and Bus 909 came one after another. I got on Bus Green 13, arrived at XinDian Sports Center before 9 o’clock. I started with weight training for 5 minutes, stretching for 20 minutes, running for 25 minutes, weight training for 5 minutes depending on the availability of the equipment.
At 10 o’clock, I checked the line messages at Family Mart, and was informed that the garbage at the penthouse had been taken away this morning. After answering a few line messages till 10:45, I rode an orange YouBike home. On my way, I bought a head of broccoli for NT$30 dollars, a head of cabbage for NT$65 dollars at the traditional market on JianGuo Road, paid the credit card bill at YuShan Bank on MinQuan Road.
At noon, we had fried dumplings for lunch. I didn’t feel sleepy after lunch. I had an apple and a cup of ice latte at 1:45, continued to watch a few Japanese podcasts till 3:00, laid in bed for 30 minutes without falling asleep. I left home at 3:30, took Bus Brown 2 to JingXin Library, fetched four books by Simone de Beauvoid, 6 DVDs, including Toy Story 3. I took Bus Green 13 home. I stopped by the PX Mart to buy one pound of beef steak for dinner.
In the evening, I watched a Korean program, Sejong Korean Conversation 2, lesson 1, and a DVD.
October 12th, Monday, Sunny
I got up at a quarter to 8, arrived at XinDian Sports Center at 8:40, started running for 25 minutes, stretching for 25 minutes. I took Bus 648 at 9:30, changed to Bus 253 at GongGuan, arrived at the penthouse at 10:15. I waited for the garbage removal company impatiently till 12:30, left NT$15,000 to the concierge to help me pay for the expenditure of removal of ceiling and floor garbage. I had a dish of fired pork liver and a bowl of beef soup noodles at the famous beef noodles shop around the corner where I used to eat often.
I arrived at the October birthday party gathering at 1:45, changed dress and went to the party lounge downstairs! The happy birthday party for Virginia and me ended at 5:15. It was a pleasant gathering of six golden ladies. It was soothing to know the recent situations of golden ladies at Lydia’s lounge. My isomnia issue of interrupted sleep at night has been bothering me for a while. After knowing most golden ladies had similar problems, I felt at ease. Aging is inevitable and irreversible, we all have to face all kinds of physical and mental challenges eventually on our life journey.
I arrived home before 7 o’clock. We had DaLu noodles for dinner.




